What made you stop being an addict?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

What is truer than that which is true?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Is something wrong with my discharge? So, when I masturbate, white discharge comes from my vagina, but it's not stretchy, it's pasty. It doesn't smell and I'm not itchy, so I'm sure it's not a yeast infection. Why is it pasty though?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

This was February 2019.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

If gays can get married, why can't I marry my dog or a cheeseburger?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Just keep trying

I'm straight, so why do I love watching guys cum?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Why would my ex block me after I blocked him?

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Why does my best friend call me ugly and act like she’s joking, but today she looked at me and said “I wouldn’t lie to you”? What should I say back to her?

Read that again ☝️

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

What would Spanish sound like if only latin and Greek words were used, like some romance analogy to anglish?

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Why is America so fucked up?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

So I’m getting piano lessons and my teacher wants me to get an upright piano instead of a keyboard. An upright piano is way above my price range, so what do I do? And what’s the difference between an upright piano and a keyboard?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Were there any friendly fire incidents involving American submarines, aircraft carriers, or battleships during World War II or World War I?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Is it possible to become homeless after being released from jail or prison in the United States?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Why does Nickelback, a popular Canadian alternative-rock band, receive so much hate? Is it because they are not considered "edgy" by some people?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

And I can also talk to them now.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.